There's still hope!

Alfonso sent me a text message last night.

Kring! Guess what? There's still a chance for you to be famous! :P Sabi ni auntie may special screening pa.Ü (Auntie said that there will be a special screening) Gusto mo sabay tayo?Ü (Want us to go together?) Wahaha.Ü Good night.Ü

Alfonso, please tell me that you're not joking. I so badly want to join Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition. Everything's so clear in my mind now: what I might say, what the judges might ask, and how I'll go about when I'm inside Big Brother's house. I'm so excited!!!

Phew. I'll cross my fingers and pray that I may be one of the twelve house mates of Kuya.Ü

Of faith and other things

I have five huge, angry, pus-filled zits. Two on my forehead, two on my left cheek, one on my chin.

What on earth did I do to deserve this?

(On a cheerful note, mum ordered pizza, pasta, and garlic and cinnamon sticks today. Yum. :))

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I do think mum and dad are serious about migrating to Australia. If it is so, then I have to prepare myself.

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I was browsing DeviantArt yesterday to get a picture for my next skin, but I ended up checking the DeviantArt shop. And now, I badly want to buy an oeuvre for my room. There are just too many good artworks to buy!

Here are some of the art I put in my wishlist. Sorry if pixels are big:

R.I.L - Rest In Love by Liester

Squid Drug Fantasy by Bowie-Spawan

Your Favorite Color by suzi9mm

What Your Voice Makes Me Feel by Liester

Ilove by Liester

The Sounds of Escapism by Simanion

Fallen by frail

It's okay. by Duffzilla

Teaparty by trenchmaker

Flutter by by Duffzilla

Addara. by MAiS2 (this has the DeviantArt watermark, but the actual product won't display it)

On a different topic: I take the trike on my subdivision to get home, and yesterday's ride was one of the memorable trike rides I had.

I went to the trike station and got the trike ride of an old man. He is obviously one of the many senior citizens who were still working, and I felt pity for him and decided to give him a whole P20 bill as soon as we reached home. Upon pedaling, the old man looked at me and asked me:

"What's your name?"

I knew that he wanted to start a conversation, so I told him, "Kring"

Then he replied, "Hello, Kring, I'm Eddie," he looked at me and smiled "Kring... have we met before?"

I think we did, although I wasn't sure. I remember, sometime during the first semester, that one of the trike drivers started a conversation with me about how the world was, so I just gave him a small smile and said, "I'm not sure, manong. I don't remember the faces of the trike drivers,"

"Ah..." and he asked, "Kring, what do you think of the world today?" and at that moment, I knew it was him whom I talked to many months ago.

"Um..." I started to think. I'm not really good at such kinds of conversation, but I knew that I would learn something from Eddie. Then I said, "Magulo (in disorder). And the youth today aren't like the youth before."

"How?"

"The youth of today are so reckless and immoral, unlike the generation before, when everyone had their morals and know right from wrong."

"Yes, yes," he nodded, "Nowadays, kids are badly behaved as they follow what they see on TV. They think that what is presented by the media is what is good and what is right. And parents don't reprimand, and there is no one to guide today's children."

True, I thought. My brothers watch WWE and that's where they got their violence. They always wrestle each other for fun.

The rest of the conversation is about the media and its influence on the youth; and our conversation ended like this, "Kring, do you read the Bible?"

I was ashamed to say that I haven't been doing it lately, so I answered, "I read Revelations."

"Ah, but you must read the whole Bible - from Genesis to Revelations - to know what God's message is, as he wants you to come to Him." then I pointed my house. He gave me a magazine and said, "Read that, and I hope that you will not be mislead by the media, and find your way back to God. I hope that magazine will help you in your way." I thanked him and gave him the P20 bill.

I learned something from Eddie, the most striking is that God wants me to come back to Him. Lately, I've been detached to God - my prayers aren't heartfelt anymore, and I could feel that my relationship with Him is weakened by my busy schedule, that I don't have time to talk to Him, and at night, I'm just too tired to truly tell to Him everything I felt. Maybe, I thought, this is a sign from God. Maybe He wants me to talk to Him the way I did before.

Thank you, Eddie. Though you wouldn't read this, I want you to know how thankful I am that you're the trike driver I had yesterday. You're wise, and you're blessed, as God made you His instrument for people to come back to their faith. Please do spread the Message, as you did to me, so that instruments such as you be multiplied. Thank you, Eddie! Take care and God bless!

Some who are inferior

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are wise, insightful, and brilliant. Your wit is sharp and occasionally hurtful... Revealing your scorn for people with less intelligence. Underneath it all, you feel burdened by the stupidity of humanity. You know what's right in the world, but it's overshadowed by everything that's wrong. People see you as arrogant. While this is partially true, you are also very sensitive.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

"Revealing your scorn for people with less intelligence"

How true. Every bit of the test is true.

My one-month break

Hello, hello, hello semestral break!!!

^{...Do come in. Do you want coffee or hot tea?^_^}

Finally! After five months of hard work, of stress, and of cramming, my big break has finally come. I've been waiting for this moment since last week: it was only then when I realized how much I wanted to take a breather from all the crap college throws at me. The tests, the deadlines, the issues... I had a hard time dealing with a lot of things, considering that I'm adjusting to the new, "un-spoon fed" life thrown to me after graduation.

This is just great. I could finally give my overly maltreated skin a break. I have been breaking out so badly that my face has HUGE, angry pimple scars, whether in the forehead, the cheeks, or the chin. I feel so bad about it that I constantly ask myself why I inherited dad's gene regarding my face (he's got a lot of zits, I tell you).

Now, at college, I still am procrastinating; the finals proved it. It's just hard to study when I'm not hurrying, you know? It's as if I'm absorbing nothing, since my mind keeps saying "Why study now? You've got so much time to do it later," until I finally tell myself, damn it, Kring, why the hell are you studying at such an early time? You'll have more than enough time to do that later. That keeps going over and over until it's about 8:00 in the evening, and I say, damn, it's late at night! And I'm getting sleepy! Until what time could I study my lessons? Up to what part would I finish? Maybe I'll just study the other topics tomorrow morning... Note to self: in order to get to UP and pass UP, you must learn to prioritize.

I'll miss my block mates. Despite all the fire and ice, I'll remember our bond. Yes, there were, and there are still, conflicts going about because of the many incompatible personalities; let's just hope that these will be forgotten at the end of the semestral break. We just can't carry hatred forever, can we? There are more things to be focused on rather than the petty fights and silly irritations we get ourselves into.

Yup, though the semestral break is only for a month, it'll help me clear and clean my mind from all the stress and impurities it got from the first semester. I'll finally stop and take a closer look at everything rather than seeing it only from the corner of my eye, since I have been so busy. Best of all, I could finally, finally, rest my abused body. I'm so tired it affects my writing.

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Yesterday, I have browsed through the library of Mangadownloads and downloaded Akkan Baby.Ü It's a nice manga: very entertaining, and kind of romantic. It also deals with the issue of (surprise, surprise) teenage pregnancy.

Shigeru (girl) and Yuki (boy) aren't a couple but they do sex often, just for the fun of it. Actually, they aren't aware that doing sex is kind of restricted to couples and are surprised by their friends' reactions ("WHAT?! BOTH OF YOU'RE HAVING SEX?!") They keep going at it, until one day, Shigeru's friends give her a pregnancy test kit, and it went positive.

This is one of my favorite parts of the story (click to expand)...

Aaw, I love it! It's so romantic! Whee~

I'm going to finish the manga today; it's only short, after all.Ü Visit Mangadownloads.com if you want more manga goodness. :)

Please don't.

Are mom and dad serious about migrating to Australia?!

I hope not! :(

Fifteen messages

The Rules:
- Write something for 15 different people.
- You cannot say who they are.
- If someone asks you which one is about them, you are not to tell.

1. I'm grateful I have you as a friend. You really are great, and though I don't consider you my bestfriend, you are close to one. Really. You make me so happy everytime we meet; I only time I actually bloom is when I'm with you. I've noticed that when we met for the first time after so many months: I actually felt so happy that my glow is different, so different from the usual dull one I have at school. I feel that I could never be envious with you, because we are a perfectly balanced team. I love you, girl!Ü (Now you know my friend's a she. :D)

2. ...And you. I don't know if you're aware, _{but I really hate you.} I thought we were friends, and I also thought that you're one of the most well-rounded people there is. I thought wrong. In the end, you're the one who almost broke all of us apart. And I hate you 'coz I'm jealous of you; I admit that. You stole something from me and you aren't even sorry. Well, uh... (gains composure) I hope you know who you are. I think you do.

3. I love you! You're my bestfriend! I love the way our relationship turned well, and I'm glad you're setting a good example for me. I'm mature because of you. I've learned to empathize because of you. Most important, I know what's right and wrong because of you.Ü Thank you so much! And please, don't leave us. I don't want you to go to Australia. The thought of it is unbearable.

4. You're charismatic and I love that. You're a people-magnet, and people seem to gravitate towards you. I wish I'm like that! -_- But I'm glad that we're friends, despite that nasty scandal way back when _{(which I'd rather forget, but you always open that up for fun)}. You're special.Ü I think you're going to be real successful someday, with your social skills.

5. I couldn't believe I had a relationship with you. O_O ^{I'm embarrassed.}

6. I couldn't believe I did all those because of you. I acted like a desperate girl looking for a boyfriend! Argh! It's sooo humiliating and degrading!O_O (Mind you, I'd still like to see you, _{you really do have the looks} :D but I'm still overly ashamed of myself, so maybe not now -_-)

7. I hate you! You're butt-ugly! And yet, you make everyone fall for you! And relationships end because of you! (I know your history, dude. Not exactly what I thought, seeing how you look like... I'm mean :( I shouldn't be saying things like that. I learned in Psychology that _{attitudes you don't like in yourself, you tend to see in others.} And, uh...)

8. I hope you trust me more. If not, then I hope you don't make other people mistrust me; keep your disbeliefs to yourself. I know you've been mature and all way back in our early years in high school, but as time passes your quality degrades. Sorry, but that's what I see.

9. I love you, you know that, but I wish you'd stop what your doing. You're killing your future. In the end, all those parties aren't going to be worth it.

10. We've just recently met, but I feel that I could have a close relationship with you. You're just so cute, plus, we get along fine. I don't know what it is in you, I honestly don't, but you're one of the few whom I'd like to spend my quality time with. I feel that I'm going to have a super fun day if ever we're going to bond. And I just love how capricious you are. (Ha-ha, giveaway. ;))

11. You don't know me, but I wish to become your wife! Booyeah! And though we have a HUGE age-gap, your voice is enough for me to forget all about that! Haha! So come to the Philippines! XD

12. And you, _{you're making me unfaithful to #11 :(} You're killing me, killing me! ...Oops. XD (Just break up with that Hollywood girlfriend of yours and come to the Philippines, will you?!)

13. You're one of the smartest people I've met! You're so smart, very versatile, and wholesome. I want to be like you exceed you! XD And I want to get to know you more.Ü

14. You know, I admire your sense of humor and your personality, and I want to be closer to you. I need you. And though I don't see you everyday because of your work, it doesn't change the way that I love you. I hope that there will come a time that we could easily open up to each other, tell stories and secrets, and just hang around and be comfortable with one another.

15. Lastly. You're a great person, but you need to put a bit more pressure to yourself. I know you already are, but it isn't enough to make you determined. Quit slacking. Do what you need to do. I know that you'll be very successful one day, but try to make the most out of your life right now. Don't bother about stupid things such as love at the moment, that'll come when the time is right. FOCUS. You're great and I love you more than you know.

...Glad that's over. -_-

Hell you, PBB! Heaven you, Ashleiy! (What?)

How uninformed can we get?

Last Thursday, Alfonso and I had a conversation and I told her about my interest in joining the second season of Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition. Now, come on. It's not everyday that you get the chance of being inside Bahay ni Kuya (Big Brother's House), experience being followed (or spied at) by cameras 24/7, and it's certainly not everyday that you get a shot at being nation-wide famous. Hell, yes, I'm interested for the wrong reasons, but hey, I'm also thinking about the kind of experience I'll get when I'd get stuck in a house with thirteen other teenagers who have either the beauty, or the attitude, or both - the reason why they have passed the auditions.
Now, upon ranting my dream to Alfonso, she listens intently when she said a faint "Oh", her eyes wide and mouth partially open. Then she tells me the unexpected, "My friend said that the auditions are over."

Silence.

"What?"

I couldn't believe it. It couldn't be, could it? ABS-CBN would have commercialized about the auditions, or did they just rely on the internet or pass the news through mouth? I waited for Alfonso to smile, maybe throw confetti and say "Just Kidding! I had you good, didn't I?!" but she continued, "Well, my friend went to ABS-CBN but by that time, the auditions were over."

Damn it! Why wasn't I aware? Why didn't anyone tell me anything - hell, why didn't ABS-CBN tell the nation? It has been my goal since June to join the PBB teen edition!

Thankfully I remembered our conversation and decided to search the web for proof that the auditions really are over. If they aren't, I'm going to kick Alfonso's rear hard for making me crestfallen.

A few minutes later, I got the answer in Mukamo (click that to see the site):

Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition 2 Schedule of Auditions

Auditions for the second edition of Pinoy Big Brother (PBB) Teen Edition will be held this month.

Age Requirement: 16-19 years old by April to June 2008
Audition Schedule: September 9 and 15, 2007, 9:00 AM - 3:00 PM
Venue: PBB Eviction Hall

Don’t forget to bring:
original and photocopy of birth certificate
1 close-up and 1 full body picture
valid ID
ballpen

I scurried a bit and told myself, Wait, today's only September 3, right? Or September 4? Thinking, I came to realize that my brain, maybe due to renewed hope, had its date set a month earlier. Dang it, so auditions really are over.

Still, I didn't want to go down without a fight. Go to Mukamo and see post #163. Of course, I pleaded at post #164. Haha, very funny.

Oh well. I do hope that auditions are not through. Come on, ABS-CBN, you guys are so inconsiderate.

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On a much brighter note, Ashleiy has finally posted our pics in her Multiply! Joy~

This was the introduction to the folder where our pictures were placed:

-Niggah Day

September 17, 2007
Lunch time
Mcdo, Katipunan

I went to school at 9:30 a.m so I could pay and get the tickets for the "Unang Dalaw" play. Since the play's not until 3 p.m., I texted Kring and asked her if they were having their cheering practice and if I could go and see her there at Miriam. She
insisted that we have lunch together instead... So yeah...

College life...is well... COLLEGE LIFE. Hectic scheds, busy days, term papers, plates,and the likes. Heck, so what does this have to do with Kring and I? THAT is the very reason why we haven't seen each other since summer. That's why I'm really, really, really happy that we get to see each other again! We updated each other on stuff about school, lovelife(?), and other things. Too bad that it was only
for an hour and a half though. Anyway, I had so much fun! Love yah NIGGAH KRING! Yes, you will be able to transfer to UP! Goodluck! :)

Ashleiy up-close

Me up-close

Ashleiy super up-closed. Haha. I love this picture. It's her nose. xD

"Nigguh, stop that, you know I'm no good at posing!"

"I told you to stop it! Ah, what the hell."

A super-special note for a super-special friend (I wonder why Ashleiy censored some of things I wrote...?xD)

And a super-special note from her to me, telling me that I'm fat -__-

You see our picture there at her notebook? And, yes, this is what college could do to your face....And we end it with a blast. Ü

If you want to see more, click here.

Dear Ashleiy, I love you, but I do wishfully hope that you stop taking snapshots of my pimples. How could we ever hope to romance *toooot* and *toooot* if you take pictures of our... uh, "assets"? Haha! I so so love you Nigguh! And I so so miss you.Ü Hug!