I need a breath of fresh air, and yet somehow, I want my old life back.
Hence I'm going to regularly update this blog again - I hope ;)
Anyway...
I am so not happy with how things are going so far. I'm kind of depressed. Maybe it's because my academics are spiraling downward? Or because my block isn't really the best block there is? Or maybe it's a mixture of both? Please don't let that be the case. :O
Explanation:
1. My academics are not so good. So far I've failed 3 long tests - Math, Zoology Lab, and Zoology lecture. How much worse can it get? Other than that, I'm completely disorganized...
I'm ranting right now, hahaha. Somehow I just want to laugh all of this off. I feel like a BIG laugh will make all my sadness disappear, and I remember how I write in this blog. Kind of humorous in a way, for me that is. Argh... I need to laugh! I need a laugh from non-Ateneo people! O_O Ateneo's... gah!
2. My block mates. You know how, in the first few days of school, almost every one of us says "Holy hell my block mates are the best in the world!!!" And little by little, day by day, you realize how mistaken you are? Well that's the stage I'm in right now. Don't get me wrong, though; I'm not in a fight with anyone in my block. It's just that the class somehow feels tense. There are a couple of B.V.s (Bad Vibes) between people here and there, and me, I'm trying my best to have good relations with everyone (Good thing no block mate of mine knows about this blog :3 I can type all I want). Add to that the "groupings" between block mates - and I'm a loner. BUT. That doesn't mean I'm uncool yo 8) Hahaha. I only mean that I don't stick with a particular group - I change groups depending on who I feel like talking to.
I really feel sad right now :( I need my friends. My barkada, Ashleiy, Cha - holy, I haven't seen all of them for about 2 months now. I NEED THEM! :|
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3 comments:
i think it's perfectly normal to be in that stage, because in the first few days we're all like excited about the people and everything, and then when you realize that you're going with these people for a long time, you start to think and weigh their personalities.. well, as for you naman kringers, as long as wala ka ginagawa masama, okay lang yan sinasabi mo na loner thing. kase it means kaya mo pakisamahan lahat :)
naku, study well next time! :) I MISSED YOU! -Aryan
Kring! It's good to hear from you after so long. IMY! :)
I also had a hard time with my acads during my first sem in UP. I was applying for an org then, so my attention was really sabog. Haha. Maybe you could find someone to tutor you if you're having problems with certain subjects. Or you could consult your profs. And about your block, it's good that you get along with everyone. Cliques are inevitable, so we have no choice but to live with certain borders. Hehe. But eventually, you'll have your own set of BFFs there. But I also agree with you: HS barkadas can never be replaced :)
Good luck with everything! Take care! :)
P.S. I moved pala! Kindly check out my new blog if you have time, Kring. Thanks! :)
-Bea
that's always the case. you feel liike everyone was nice and okay during first days of school...but little by little, you'll start noticing some changes and all. well, such is lfe.
HS friends are still irreplaceable.
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