No damnation, please

Happy 18th birthday, Jil honey. A girl like you deserves nothing but the best.Ü

Anyway, it's 12 AM. I'm kinda restless. Check that - I'm agitated.

I just received my freaking report card. Want to see it?

      Course Description              Grade

Rhythmic Activities                            4.5
Biblical Foundation of Christian Faith         4.5
Child Adolescent Development                   4.5
Educational Technology I                       4.0
Speech Communication                           4.5
Introduction to Humanities                     4.5
Elementary Statistics                          2.0
Introduction to Sociology                      3.0


Semestral QPA (Quality Point Average)          3.9130
CQPA (Cumulative Quality Point Average)        4.0465



             Grading System



5.0 (99-100)- Excellent          FA  - Failure due to absences
4.5 (96-98) - Superior           INC - Incomplete
4.0 (93-95) - Very good          W   - Withdrawn from course
3.5 (90-92) - Good               NE  - Never entered
3.0 (87-89) - Average            EX  - Excellent
2.5 (84-86) - Low average        VG  - Very good
2.0 (81-83) - Below average      G   - Good
1.5 (78-80) - Fair               S   - Satisfactory
1.0 (75-77) - Poor performance   FS  - Fairly satisfactory
F - Failed
P - Passed

...

Holy. I couldn't believe it.

I got an crappy, effing 2 in Math.

I had a codigo and all in my finals, but I still get a 2?! It's repulsive! (And to think I got a perfect 5 in the subject last semester... -_-)

I'm really, really worried about how my dad would react to that. All this time he's been thinking of how brilliant I suddenly am in Math, only for him to see my crappy report card and realize that his daughter is below average in her Statistics.

And Sociology? Don't blame me - blame our prof. She's one of if not the most useless prof I have ever had. If she's a normal teacher, she should've 1) brought her class record and other academic stuff in class and not just her handbag, and 2) realized that I actually should get an FA in her class as I have been present in her class for only half a semester.

Dammmmmiiiiiitttt.

I should pass ADMU and/or UP.

I don't want to go to Miriam anymore... -____-

I'm gonna cry already.

LOL. I should really use The Secret right now.

That is, like, so gay

Japanese people are so cute -__-

And I hate the fact that I love Japan. I mean, loving a place where you know you won't fit in, with the barriers and all - that sucks man. I want to be Japanese (but I'm not complaining about being Filipino, I'm actually proud of that)!

But anyway...

This video made me laugh hard. I know it's kinda corny, but still - it's funny.


By the way, when we were in Camsur Watersports Complex my brother, Bryan, conversed with a foreigner. They talked when Bryan finished a round in wakeboarding...

Foreigner: How are you?
Bryan: I'm fine, thank you.
Foreigner: You're a much better swimmer than your sister.
Bryan: How did you know that I have a sister?
Foreigner: I heard you when you called her 'ate'

...

T___________T

"You're a much better swimmer than your sister"
"...much better swimmer than your sister..."
"...swimmer than your sister..."
"...your sister..."

Urgh! Is my swimming that bad?! Well, what's there to expect from a non-athletic, unfit, aging lady like me compared to an athletic, healthy, vigorous and active eleven-year-old?!

And that comment came from a foreigner... T_T

Seriously?

While sleeping, I dreamt that I've joined the Bb. Pilipinas.

And that I didn't make it to the top 10 -_-

...

Oh well, people say that dreams that take place on nighttime are opposite to what happens in real life.

So that means that, not only will I get to join Bb. Pilipinas, I'll bring home the crown, too!

Or does it mean that I won't get to join at all?...

...

Probably the former.

---


I'm frustrated right now. And fat.

OMGosh, I couldn't believe how much I gained this past year.

Ever since I graduated from high school, I constantly gained fats!

See??

Before:



Now:

.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

Could I cuss just this once? Could I? ...Oh my fucking goodness! I'm so fucking fat!

So fat, in fact, that even my mom agreed!

When I was in high school I always complained about being fat (well, I always had baby fats since way back when; my tummy has never been flat), but mom would tell me, "Anak, you're just overreacting. You're thin already!" But now whenever I'd complain about that, she'd tell me, "Yan kasi, kain ka ng kain. Ang taba mo na nga. Wag ka na kumain ng kanin at bumalik ka na sa pagta-taebo mo. (That's the consequence of eating too much. You're right; you're already fat. Don't eat rice anymore, and do your taebo again.)"

...

What's up with that -_-

This is so frustrating!

Alright, I'll do as mom tells me.

And I should fall in love, too.

When I was in 2nd year high school I fell in love (puppy love) with someone, and because of constantly being confused and upset, I didn't have any appetite. I actually always felt full even though I didn't eat anything. So as a result, I lost a lot of fat and shed off my piggy image.

But I'm not in love anymore. So I'm regaining my image once again -_-

...

Sigh. I hate my genes. (Haha, I'm putting the blame on my genes once more.)

Dammit. I need to discipline my exercise and food intake. As in, now.

Wish me a whole lot of luck.

Supertrip

Got home from our trip yesterday. We were supposed to head home the day before, but due to the many places (there was Naga, Legaspi, and Donsol) to see plus the little time we had, dad decided to extend our stay by a day.

The trip was average: I had many fun moments, but it was equal if not overriden by annoying happenings caused by some of my annoying relatives (particularly by the grown-ups who are miserably single). -_-

I won't be giving a blow-by-blow account of the trip (really?), that'd be too boring and time-consuming. Anyway!

I. On the way

The trip takes eight hours by car, so in order to prevent traffic we had to leave at 4 AM. We met up with our relatives in some gasoline station an hour later.

I've always known that Kyle, my younger brother, is a super-smart kid, and in this trip he again made me aware of how he may be smarter than me. -_- Here's how the conversation went in the car:

(*My family talks about my armpits, which is really annoying*)
Me: Bryan, you forgot to wax my armpits last night.
Bryan: Oh, yeah! I told you I should've waxed it earlier.
Me: It's okay, I waxed them off myself.
Dad: It's really hard, isn't it, having a forest for an armpit.
Me: -_- ...
Mom: (*Defending me*) Kring'll laser her armpits one day.
Kring: Yeah! That I will. Laser.
Kyle: (*Defining laser*) Light amplification by stimulation; emission of radiation.
Everyone: (*Silence, then blood trickles from my nose*)

...

When I was 12 I didn't talk about such things!

What's up with that!

Aren't the eldest children supposed to be the ones to get all the brains their parents have!

So we later found out that he got that definition from the club he joined two years ago, the Book Lovers Club. When did books start to have definitions of lasers? -_-

Moving on...

There have been many breathtaking sites on the way to Bicol. But my favorite was the Lamon Bay in Gumaca.


I swear, the bay looks amazing. This picture doesn't do it justice.

So, after a grueling nine-and-a-half hours, we finally made it to Camsur Watersports Complex, or CWC, the resort we stayed at in Bicol.

II. CWC

A brief introduction: CWC is reputed to be the best cable wake park in Asia.

We stayed in the Villa del Ray Villas, which is the most expensive villa in CWC. We had no choice, by the way, coz the other villas were full. We got two rooms, since one room isn't enough for all of us (there were 12 of us).

And have I told you of how we cheat our way to these types of things? Sneaky, I know. And we actually already got banned from some resorts. -_-V Anyway, what we always do is: 1. Not tell the truth of how many we really are and 2. Bring a rice cooker, water heater, food, etc even if it's not allowed. Money is important, people. Must save as much as we can.

Anyway, the villa is so nice! So cozy: the bed and pillows are soft, plus the comfort room and bath room are so appealing to use. Hehe. Plus there's also an outdoor jacuzzi, and the TV has cable, too! Love.♥ I actually thought to myself, when I get a job, I'm going to have a house like this. Bigger, of course, but like this.

There I am, trying out the jacuzzi.

III. Second day: CWC + Mount Mayon

Since CWC is the best cable wake park in Asia, we shouldn't miss on trying wakeboarding ourselves. Though I'm not sure whether we wakeboarded or kneeboarded... whatever.

It was quarter to nine when we went to the man-made lake to go wakeboarding. I kinda expected that the grown-ups would just be watching and not joining us to go wakeboarding, and I thought right. It was just me with my brothers and my two cousins.

From left: Kyle, Bryan, me, Drex, and Ryan

Wakeboarding/Kneeboarding/Whatever we did there wasn't so bad when we got the hang of it. At first it was hard to hold on to the cable, I didn't expect it to be that fast. Plus my arms and hands hurt from holding on. But later on I got hooked, although I didn't last longer than one whole round, and then I'd fall to the water.

By the way, Tita Rose was sooo embarrassing. When I got back from my first round at the lake, she saw that I was full of sand, thus she called me "Miss Earth" After that, whenever I'd go wakeboarding again, she would shout at the top of her lungs, "GO MISS EARTH!!!" and people (which included LOTS of foreigners) would go look around, saying, huh, there's a Miss Earth candidate here? And when they see me they're all, oh, so it was a joke, after all. So embarrassing!

After lunch we went to Legaspi, a good one and a half hour from CWC, to see the Mayon Volcano (or as my Tita Rose called it, Mount Volcano) from the Cagsawa Ruins. When we got there we were disappointed as Mayon was covered by the clouds. Turns out, the Mayon Volcano seldom shows itself in its full glory, because clouds always envelope it.

With my brothers at the submerged tower

With mom at the submerged church ruins

Apparently, mom is trying to make me look vain.

It was here that dad found us a tourist guide, Kuya Jules. He would be with us on the next day of our trip.

By this time I was already worrying about whether or not we'll make it on time to CWC so that I could watch my favorite anime, Samurai X on Studio 23, 8 PM. I wanted to watch the episode especially since it would feature my long-time crush, Soujiro Seta (loved him since 5 years ago).

So handsome... -_- too bad you're just a cartoon.

So when we were finished with the Cagsawa Ruins, I thought, finally we're going to go back now... but it turns out that we weren't. We still went to some mountain top. And it was already 7 PM when the adults decided to return to CWC, and with a hour and a half trip back I didn't get to watch the episode with my beloved Soujiro. My cousins and brothers sympathized with me since they're also avid watchers of Samurai X.

And here was when a particular unmarried relative started to get annoying. Argh. So irritating. I won't put it into details now, but s/he wanted the trip to go his/her way, and s/he wants us younger ones to behave to the point where just a little witty remark will make him/her turn to us and give us a mean look. S/he has lost the child in her.

IV. Third day: to Donsol

By this day Kuya Jules was with us to be our tourist guide. We went to various places on our way to Donsol, which is in Sorsogon.

--> Hoyop Hoyopan Cave

Now here is a good part of the trip. The Hoyop Hoyopan Cave is beautiful and exciting. And who would've thought that there'd be human fossils there, dating back from 200 BC? I saw it with my own eyes, a part of the feet and the ribs. Too bad I didn't get to touch it, though.


The funniest thing happened inside the cave; too bad I didn't get to record it since it's worthy to be aired on Bitoy's Funniest Videos. See, there's a part of the cave wherein the holes are small and you have to squeeze your way through them in order to move on to the other parts of the cave. All of us didn't have difficulty in squeezing through; it's Filipino-sized, after all. But my huge Tita Rose had a different story. Half of us have already passed through the holes, and it was her turn. She couldn't fit! All of us had to go through before she could try to squeeze herself again. It was REALLY FUNNY. She tried every possible move, bent her body in every possible angle for the sake of going in. It took so long, and all of us were laughing. It was hilarious, I tell you.

(Okay, just now Kyle corrected some of the grammatical errors he found on this post. T_____T I hate him.)

My family + relatives.

Seated: Ninong Ipoy and me, holding a crystal
Huddled on the left, clockwise: Drex (in green shirt), Ninang Tetet, Ninong Joji, Ryan, Tita Rose, Ace, Bryan
Huddled to the right: Mom, Kyle, Dad

We brought some crystals as souvenirs, and the crystals are said to have energizing properties. Just submerge them on your drinking/bathing water for a while and presto. Energizing water.

--> Mayon Volcano

We had lunch after that and went to the Mayon Volcano (not at the tip, of course). We ate there; and it was also there where I found out of the tragedy that struck Kuya Jules. His mother and younger sibling were swept away and killed by the typhoon Reming. I feel sorry for him because of that.


--> Waterfalls

I was tired and wanted to rest after lunch, but the trip wasn't over yet. We went to a waterfall, where we didn't bathe at all. Too bad. This time it was Drex - Tita Rose's son - who made a blooper. He stumbled through one of the boulders. Dad laughed so hard that he put Drex to shame. Poor kid.

And after that we finally went to the place in Donsol where we would be staying. It was a humble beach resort, the TV had no cable (so I can't watch Samurai X again) and there were no fancy stuff or whatsoever.

Then came another blooper from Tita Rose. The kids, along with me and Tita Rose, were at the beach, and since Tita Rose and I were just there to watch the kids, she decided that both of us play a game. She drew a big circle and told me that we run along the lines of the circle and tag each other. So we did. I was having so much fun running around the circle (we looked like idiots), and after a while, when she tagged me she lost control of herself, ran outside the circle and fell face-first to the sand just near the water. AND I LAUGHED SOOOO HARD! I'm laughing now just by the thought of it. Anyway, as I said, I laughed so hard that I peed in my shorts. That's how funny it was.

IV. Day IV: Whale-watching and going home

The reason why we went to Donsol in the first place was to interact with the whale sharks, or butanding as we call it. So at 8 AM we went to another resort, just near the one we were at, as that was the place where these interactions were financially settled.

Dad and Ninong Joji didn't bother coming, because aside from the butanding interaction being expensive (3,500 pesos), they also had to rest as they were going to drive us home.

Anyway, first up to see the butanding were me and Kyle, since there were only two guys who were with us so we had to go at it two at a time. And guess what I saw?

.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

A whale shark, baby. It's HUGE!

It was amazing. It's the first time I've seen a butanding so close. Kyle and Ryan were lucky, though; they were able to touch it.

We finished after three hours, after that we ate, packed our things, and went home. Though we went back to CWC to stay the night there; it was already 8 PM and dad didn't want to drive all the way home at an ungodly hour. And as usual, we cheated into sleeping in one of the hotel rooms.

V. Fourth day: HOME

We started at 8 AM. The only different thing about this trip is that we took a different route in Atimonan. We drove through the Quezon National Forest Park, and I tell you, it was AMAZING. Depending on the person, it may be seen as frightening or beautiful. But the park really was amazing. It was as if I was in a place where fairies and anitos reside. The trees were humongous, and the roads were all zigzagged. You MUST go there at lest once in your life.

We got home at 6 PM, just in time for American Idol. Phew! Finished, at last.

HELLO, Summer

YES!


THIS IS THE MOMENT I'VE LONG BEEN BLEEDING FOR!


SUMMER! =)

At long last. I've already fixed my things (read: fixed to be thrown into the garbage bin) so that I can truly feel the summer. I'm going to be able to take a break now.

I'm not sure how I'm going to spend my vacation, though. I really want to take piano lessons, but that plan's vague since we don't even have a piano at home. But I hope I'm going to have cooking lessons; I want to learn how to cook so that I could finally have a boyfriend! could expand my knowledge and be a step closer to self-actualization.

By the way, last night I watched some of HappySlip's videos and wow - she's funny! And really talented. I recommend you to slip into happiness by watching her.Ü

Here's one of the videos which I find entertaining:




See more of her videos. They're all great.Ü

---

Anyway, I don't have much to say. Only that we'll be going to Naga, Bicol tomorrow and will be staying there until Wednesday. That isn't our province; we're just going to have a vacation.

Oh, and I also got to read some books. I feel like my brain becomes stupid if I don't read books. I need to replenish my lost brain cells. Sooo I'm going to read Gift of Acabar and Life of Pi, and maybe reread HP book 7.

In denial

Urgh.

I am so irritated with mom right now T__T

She doesn't even believe that I could achieve my goals!

We were in the car; here's how the conversation went...

*Kring [K] and Mom [M] talk about random things*

K: Don't worry, mom, I'm going to join Bb. Pilipinas.
M: [Suddenly has stern voice] Ay nako.... be realistic! If you're going to have a goal, make it realistic!
K: ...What? But that is realistic o.O
M: Kring, you're only 5'2, and you're already 17 years old! Do you think you can grow any taller?
K: Uh, yes??!
M: Haynako, Kring, you have to be realistic. Don't make that a part of your dream anymore; you won't grow any taller. Why, only a miracle will make you grow up to 5'6!
K: [Pissed] Alright, let's make a bet. I'll grow taller.
M: Sure. You've told me that since who-knows-when, and you haven't even grown an inch.
K: [Even more pissed] But... it's in the genes! [Thinks, argh damn you mother, for being 5 feet flat!]

Argh. I don't get why everyone's either laughing or opposing with my dreams of joining Bb. Pilipinas, and of eventually becoming Ms. Universe!

When you think about it, my height is my only disadvantage!

I've got the beauty and the brains (I've really got to learn how to be humble); I have all the requirements of joining the Bb. Pilipinas pageant except for the height!

• 17 to 24 years old --- check
  
• High school graduate --- check
• Pleasing personality --- check
• Good moral character --- check

..........














.................



















...........



















..............

• at least 5'5 in height --- kwakwakwa!

Whatever! The people who laugh at me have no high hopes for themselves whatsoever, and they're trying so hard to let me join their club. Never!

I'm made for great things!

I'll grow tall! In fact, I'll grow so tall that people will look up at me!

-____-


The hell T_T

...

On a lighter note, it's been five days since the pageant but everyone's still laughing at/mocking Janina San Miguel. Funny. Such huge impact, Janina, to never be forgotten up to now.

A comeback

Yes! I am so back from my hiatus. And I'm itching to write an update.

Anyway, I think the best way for me to express myself to allow myself to be frank. Before, I followed the norm and wrote or spoke an opinion that people wouldn't be displeased about, but now I'm more open to be - well, open - so that I could be true to myself.

1. A homage to Zara

Last Valentines day, my friends and I received news that our block mate, Zara, passed away. It has been known to me the following week that she committed suicide.

When talking about her and her death, everything to me seems to shift into a dreamlike mode: strange, unreal. See, it's my first time losing someone so young, and that someone happens to be a sweet and playful girl. I can't believe that she has planned all of this all along - it's not her. She's always happy.

But I have to admit, when Zara was still here, I never really liked her. I think she would have said the same thing about me. We just didn't click. But that doesn't matter anymore; whatever bitchy thing I do now wouldn't affect her anymore.

And is it right if I say that I talk to her even now? I talk to her when I think about her, and when I do, I'd tell her an honest truth that what she did wasn't right. That I'm furious that she took away her life, and that she has already gotten the attention she wanted. Didn't she even think of her family and her friends when she decided to end it all? It's foolish. But it's already happened.

Zara, I don't know where you really are, because religion dictates that you're suffering in the flames now. Wherever you are, that's where you deserve to be. Rest well.

II. Bb. Pilipinas

T______T

Why did she win?!

Well, yeah, she's beautiful, BUT - what the effing hell is with that effing english?!

Why did she win?!

Here's how her Q&A portion went:

Paolo Bediones: Janina, how are you?
Janina San Miguel: I'm fine.
Paolo Bediones: Alright, so you won two of the major awards - Best in Long Gown, Best in Swimsuit, do you feel any pressure right now?
Janina San Miguel: No, I don't feel any pressure right now.
Paolo Bediones: Confident! Alright! Please choose a name of the judge.
Paolo Bediones: We have Miss Vivienne Tan.
Vivienne Tan: Good Evening.
Janina San Miguel: Good Evening.
Vivienne Tan: The question is, what role did your family play to you as candidate to Binibining Pilinas?
Janina San Miguel: Well, my family's role for me is so important b'coz there was the wa- they're, they was the one who's... very... Hahahaha... Oh I'm so sorry, Ahhmm... My pamily... My family... Oh my god... I'm... Ok, I'm so sorry... I... I told you that I'm so confident... Eto, Ahhmm, Wait... Hahahaha, Ahmmm, Sorry guys because this was really my first pageant ever b'coz I'm only 17 years old and ahahaha I, I did not expect that I came from, I came from one of the top 10. Hmmm, so... but I said that my family is the most important persons in my life. Thank you.

Um, Janina? You didn't even answer the question?! Geez. Here's the video of the Q&A portion:



What's with the judges? Did her sense of humor charm them into giving her the Bb. Pilipinas-World title?!

But I have a theory. Maybe those foreigners who are also judges made Janina's score so high so that she could compete in the Miss World pageant. That being said, these foreign judges won't have to worry about the Philippines winning against their countries in the international pageant.

This is so embarrassing. I'm sure the country wouldn't bag the Miss World title this year.

I hoped that Elizabeth Nacuspag would win; she's intelligent and she carries herself so well, but she only came as 2nd runner up. Shame.

I love you Elizabeth! You should've won! You have a unique beauty and big brains that would definitely make our country proud. You should have worn a crown last Saturday.

---

Speaking of Bb. Pilipinas, I want to join the competition. I want to so badly.

I'm only 17, and I'm 5'2-5'3 in height, so my friends laugh their heads off whenever I tell them that I'm going to join Bb. Pilipinas. One of them, Jil, texted me, "Oh no! Give up. Ang tangkad nila eh. Hindi ka uubra. (they're so tall; you won't stand a chance) Hahaha"

That's why I'm going to take Cherifer multivitamins from now on, thank you!

I have the beauty and the brains (please bear with me XD), the only problem I have now is my height and my excess fats!

I'll reach 5'7 before you know it!

But seriously, I want to represent the Philippines in Ms. Universe. I think I have the chance to win that competition XD Really! I'm not kidding around. So I'm going to grow tall.

III. Math finals

I got a 5 (equivalent to 100) in Algebra last semester. But not listening to Statistics this sem pulled my grade down. My computed average is only a 2, so I have to get a 5 or 4.5 in order to get a 3.5 final grade.

I was desperate to get a high grade in my finals in Stat yesterday, so I, er... cheated?

^_^

I had a codigo.

Now I'm sure I'll get a perfect score. Although I apologized to God after. I knew that I would gain nothing by cheating, and that I'd only be fooling myself, but it was a desperate situation (and I know that that reason still isn't acceptable). Man. If I could transfer to UP or ADMU, I swear that I will try my best not to cheat anymore.

IV. Updates

What's been happening with me lately? Well, I'm just going to put them in bullet form.

• I had my period! - I'm not sure if this is weird, but I'm grateful whenever I have my period. See, my cycle is irregular, and it takes two to three months before I get another period. There was a time when I became afraid and I prayed, "God, I've realized that I want to have children when I grow up. I want kids who look like me and whom I can call my own. So please, God, let me have my period. I don't want to be barren." And God grants it when I worry again. And whenever He does, I become happy despite the pain in my buttocks. (Another weird thing, I guess. The pain goes to my butt.)
  
• We're going to Naga, Bicol this Sunday! So if you guys are going there just tell me ^_^ It's a good thing that we aren't going anywhere near a beach, as my body isn't prepared to wear a bikini. Have to exercise!
• Still focused on school - but focused isn't the way to put it. Maybe it's just the biggest priority in my life and I'm forcing myself to do my best.
• I watch American Idol. And I cried hard when Danny Noriega was voted off. :'( Why Danny, of all people? He's got the most colorful personality ever!

Danny, come back! I love you no matter what your sexual preference is!

That's all there is to me right now -_- Boring.