The mushy and gooey love investigation

Ooookay. How many times have I told myself to start blogging again? Multiply's been my online outlet these days, but I realize that my writing skillz are getting bad because I seldom write at Multiply. So, for the nth freaking time, I'm back! ^.^

First things first. School. I'm stressed! It's as if I'm only starting to adjust to college life. Back at Miriam, I could go the whole semester without studying - and have high grades at that. But in Ateneo - it's different. If you cram, you fail. And that's my very problem. I've got really low grades in Math and Zoology. And the fact that I have to score real high in those subjects in order to get atleast a C (yes, it's that bad!) - it's stressing me out. How do I manage to catch up?

Second, block mates. Ano, sugurin na natin? Haha, kidding XD Things have died down. But the bad vibes are still there. Still, I'm not going to force myself to be liked by this person. If she doesn't like me, it's fine. Actually, now, I don't mind at all. She's just one person who doesn't like me - and there are hundreds of people who like me for the way I am :) Right? Right!

NOW LET'S MOVE ON TO A BETTER TOPIC. I'm crushing on someone! Er, well - If you read this post then you may think that I'm referring to the same guy. Actually I'm not. This one's different. We shall call him Zohan, LOL. He's my classmate in Zoology.

Anyway, Zohan - let's just say that compared to the first guy I was crushing on (let's call him Jai), he's more... attainable XD Jai's a team B player for the Ateneo (and my block mate. Haha. If they read this :O), while Zohan's a normal guy. He isn't really good-looking (which doesn't mean to say he's ugly), so I wasn't attracted to him the first time I saw him. It just developed slowly. I like him 'coz he has a deep, sexy voice (ooh la la), he looks intelligent, and he's kinda cute - for me, at least (chinito, fair skin - kinda pimply, though. *snorts*). Anyway, my attraction for Zohan grew a bit more when he:

A. Helped me out

It was our long test in Zoology, and we needed a Blue Book in order to take the test. And me, ever the henyo, had no Blue Book. I was a bit panicky - I didn't know where to buy one, plus the test was in 5 minutes. But then, Zohan entered the room, holding a cup of coffee and a Blue Book. So I went to him to ask where he got one.

"Uy, san ka nakabili niyan?"

He replied,"Sa caf - halika, samahan na kita."

You guys know how I felt by then ♥ ARTE punyeta.

So we walked. He told me he was sleepy. After a while, I realized that I had forgotten his name (please, I'm terrible with names!), so I asked him:

"Uy... ano nga ba pangalan mo? Sorry ha >.<" He said, "Ang sama mo!" and told me. To challenge him, I asked, "Eh ikaw, alam mo ba pangalan ko?"

I didn't expect that he'd know. "Oo naman," he said, "Kring."

ALARM BELLS STARTED RINGING IN MY HEAD. HAHAHA.

So we got back to the classroom after I bought a Blue Book. By then, my crushing on him, which I didn't really take time to notice, became something I thought of more frequently.

B. He volunteered!

Three weeks ago, we had an activity which was by pairs. And my row-mates were absent, so I was completely alone in my row (3rd row) -_- When our prof asked who among us didn't have a partner, I raised my hand and said, "Ako, miss!" Zohan then looked at me, and all the way from the 1st row, said, "Tayo nalang."

I said, "Okay." but my heart was about to explode from happiness by then. Haha. ARTE punyeta. After pairing, we found out that the activity involved physical contact. Nyahaha.

Okay, so after that, ZERO. We hardly talked, and hardly noticed each other (?). And IDK whether he did the two things mentioned above because he had something for me or because of the circumstances, which are...

In A, he was sleepy and even had coffee with him. Did he accompany me so that he could energize and make himself less sleepy by walking?

In B, well. I guess he had no partner either. -_-

Other than that, he's a Sun Cellular user (why am I making a big deal out of THAT?), and you know Sun users - mga mag-syotang kuripot. XD Argh! What the hell. Can our feelings be mutual? Or am I just fooling myself into thinking that? (Melodramatic music, please) Oh please give me a sign.

Argh! Magkagusto ka sakin please. Hahaha.

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So anyway, here's another thing. I like this guy, he's the maternal cousin of my paternal cousin (meaning we aren't related by blood), and the weird thing is that I like him even though I haven't seen him for a year and a half. And my tita - his ninang - wants us to be together. Gusto niya kami i-set up. So ako naman si Kilig. Agree ako! LOL. I hope it really does happen. I like him, eh :) So you see...

Dalawa ang puso ko. HAHAHAHA.
Torn between two lovers. Dammit. Nagfi-feeling. :))

SUPER NAIINIS AKO SA ISA KONG BLOCK MATE. SWEAR.

HAYNAKOOOO!!! NAKAKAINIS! BWISIT KA!

Hahaha, sorry don't mind me. :P

Oh help

I need a breath of fresh air, and yet somehow, I want my old life back.

Hence I'm going to regularly update this blog again - I hope ;)

Anyway...

I am so not happy with how things are going so far. I'm kind of depressed. Maybe it's because my academics are spiraling downward? Or because my block isn't really the best block there is? Or maybe it's a mixture of both? Please don't let that be the case. :O

Explanation:

1. My academics are not so good. So far I've failed 3 long tests - Math, Zoology Lab, and Zoology lecture. How much worse can it get? Other than that, I'm completely disorganized...

I'm ranting right now, hahaha. Somehow I just want to laugh all of this off. I feel like a BIG laugh will make all my sadness disappear, and I remember how I write in this blog. Kind of humorous in a way, for me that is. Argh... I need to laugh! I need a laugh from non-Ateneo people! O_O Ateneo's... gah!

2. My block mates. You know how, in the first few days of school, almost every one of us says "Holy hell my block mates are the best in the world!!!" And little by little, day by day, you realize how mistaken you are? Well that's the stage I'm in right now. Don't get me wrong, though; I'm not in a fight with anyone in my block. It's just that the class somehow feels tense. There are a couple of B.V.s (Bad Vibes) between people here and there, and me, I'm trying my best to have good relations with everyone (Good thing no block mate of mine knows about this blog :3 I can type all I want). Add to that the "groupings" between block mates - and I'm a loner. BUT. That doesn't mean I'm uncool yo 8) Hahaha. I only mean that I don't stick with a particular group - I change groups depending on who I feel like talking to.

I really feel sad right now :( I need my friends. My barkada, Ashleiy, Cha - holy, I haven't seen all of them for about 2 months now. I NEED THEM! :|

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I haven't been updating this blog, ew for me. I'm so engrossed with my Multiply that I've ignored my blog.

Anyway...

UPDATES!

I'm crushing on someone - hard (of course, that's really the first thing a teenager needs to update people on. Haha!). I think it's okay to give a description of him here, since most of my Ateneo friends don't really know about the existence of my blogger account... but what the heck! Better safe than sorry, right (nabitin ka? :>)? Sigh! But there is a problem. No, he doesn't have a girlfriend. It's just that... I can't find a common ground for him and me to talk about, sooo... it's hard to get close to him. WTH.

Studies. So far I'm failing my Zoology, but I'm trying to get back in track. My profs in Zoo (there are two of 'em) are so boring; one of them teaches so quickly that I don't have time to absorb the discussion.

I have two gay professors - one in Math, the other in Literature. I'm quite fond of the latter; he's really girly. My male block mates always react to whatever he's saying. And since it's Literature he's teaching, he makes us, you know, read stuff which is rated R. And he explains the male protagonists so...

"What the girl doesn't know is that oily men are usually the greatest in bed" (Um, okay - based on experience?)

GTG. I'm so sleepy. I'm so stressed out; I need to adjust my body clock to atleast 10 PM.

Third's a charm

Our computer crashed AGAIN. But it's because of the hard drive this time.

I'm having a blast in Ateneo! Yay I'm so happy~ my block mates are the best.

Wait, more updates when my head is cleared of all distractions.

Goodbye, Cindy

Our dog, Cindy, died trying to give birth yesterday (father of puppies=unknown stray dog). She lived for 11 human years.

I got the news while I was with my Literature group, but it was only when I came home at 8 PM when I found out about the details. Ate Vangie (our maid) told me that Cindy was crying as she died ("there were tears in her eyes"), and that she was buried beside Sparky. I was heartbroken when she told me that after Cindy died, Brosia (our bulldog) came looking for her and stayed at the spot in the garden where Cindy was last seen alive.

Unlike with Sparky's death, I cried - and am still crying - for Cindy's (If you see me, you'll assume that I just broke up with someone). She has been my pet since I was I was in first grade. She's the smartest and most docile dog I know. I've seen her grown up, and she has seen me grow from a kid to a lady.

I'll miss Cindy. I'll miss the way she looks at me, the way she keeps quiet, the way she wags her tail, the way she eats the food I throw at her, the way she closes her eyes whenever I pat her in the head, the way she rolls over to scratch her back. I'll miss the way she stops near the opened front door when we look at her and say, "no" and I'll miss the way she gets all excited when we bring the leash out to take her for a walk. I'll miss everything about her.

When dad got home, he didn't notice how swollen my eyes were; it was mum who told him. Then he looked at me and said, "Ano bayan, nung namatay si Tiya Peting hindi ka umiyak (When your Aunt Peting died you didn't even cry)!" my mum and I laughed to that. Mum added, "Hindi ka naman bibigyan ng mana ni Cindy di gaya ni Tiya Peting (Unlike Aunt Peting, Cindy won't leave you any possessions)"

So we talked. Then dad said something - something I expected, "I'm going to buy a dog" he said, "An Akita"

"What is that, a guard dog?" mum replied, "It may attack your children, you know" and she added, "What does it look like, anyway? An ordinary dog?"

"It looks like a wolf."

"Nyay!"

So, we'll just have to wait for the Akita. Hopefully my brothers and I can shower it with love without it biting us =)

Fin.

I don't live in the mountains

It kills me that I don't have anything to write about. Oh... wait! I do have something to write about. XD

I'M NOT SEPARATED FROM CIVILIZATION ANYMORE!

I BOUGHT THE TWILIGHT BOOK! XD

And I'm still at chapter two. Despite that, I already love Edward Cullen. He's... not mine, okay (I was supposed to type "HE'S MINE!" like I always do with my other crushes, but unfortunately I can see that that's an impossibility *insert sad face*).

Why do vampires look good? No... wait. Why am I not a vampire? Hahaha XD

Moving on, my dismissal tomorrow's at 9:30 AM, but I'm going to stay in Katipunan until 4:30 PM as I'm going to attend a friend's birthday party. What am I going to do with my time? D: I'm planning on meeting up with my friends from Miriam College, hopefully that would push through.